I miss you.

ALY IS BACK

Dear Aly, 
I tried so hard not to cry, but then, I just, lost myself. You know that my dad has left our family. He has lived in Hungary,but he’s very ill now and my grandma has to take care of him, so he had to come to Austria. I want to be in a happy family, but my mum hates him now. My sister hates him too, and I don’t know if I like him or hate him. We could be together, again. Anyways, you Kiked me yesterday and I was so so so happy, I was about to cry. I miss you so much, I have to tell you sooo many important things, I need you. Do you remember Lukas? My crush? I saw him at school today, he looked at me 4 times today. At 12:00 am I have Sciene and he has Biology. I only see him at Fridays, I was in my science class, and next to the science class, there’s the biology class. I’ve waited for him with my friend Ayleen, but he didn’t come. And then I saw him and I screamed and said “See Ayleen! He is here! I knew that he would come!” I fangirled like a 4 year old girl, lol. Yeah bby, that’s it.
Bye Awy, I love you and I miss you. 
-Yasemin.

Dear Aly,
 I’ve had a lot of fun at school today. It was a good day! We had Biology, History and 2 hours of PE. I have to tell you something. I have a crush on this boy from my school! He’s 14, his name is Lukas and he’s so damn hot. I get to see him every Friday  but he’s not in my class. We would never, ever be a couple. He’s popular and I’m just a normal girl. Anyways, a girl from my class, Sabrina, has cried during PE today. I honestly don’t like her, but it was heartbreaking to see her like that. She has cried over a boy, his name is Daniel, they were a couple and today, he has messaged her saying ”I don’t love you, I love ALYSSA!!!! GOODBYE” You know her, my friend, Alyssa. And I’m talking to her now and she is saying that Sabrina is dumb. Which, is actually true. Sabrina is only 11 and Alyssa is 14, It’s sad to know that she has cried over a boy. She doesn’t even know what love is, to be honest.
I found a new friend, her name is Sibel! Aly, can you believe it?! I have 4 friends now! Alexis, Franziska, Sibel& you! Well, I’m not that close to Franziska, but I’m happy to be her friend. Alexis is my second best friend, I honestly don’t think that she still wants to be my best friend. I don’t know, she always talks about boys, which is fucking annoying. She knows that I can’t get any guy, and that just hurts me. Well, till I find the perfect boy, I have you. Aly, you are perfect. You are adorable. You are funny. You are cute. You are hilarious. You are sweet. You are lovely. You are kind. I love you to death! I love you more than anything and no one, and nothing can change this. I want to meet you so bad, I really want to hug you, you’re my best friend, and I’d do anything for you. Well, I got to go now, I have school; Again.
Bye Awy, I love you and I miss you. 
-Yasemin.

Dear Aly,
 I decided to create this blog because.. I honestly don’t know. You probably won’t be able to read this, but, I really miss you. I will write every single day a letter, it’s like my diary now. Anyways, today was a horrible day. I cried for hours at night and I couldn’t stop it. I was hugging my ‘Aly’ pillow and listening to ”Mine” by Taylor Swift and then suddenly I fall asleep. I honestly don’t know how. I woke up at 5 am just to talk to you, but then I realized that you weren’t able to talk to me. I was at school, it was okay, I guess. After 6 hours, I finally came home. I felt horrible. I wanted to talk to you, and the fact that we couldn’t, was killing me. I stopped laughing, I stopped smiling, I stopped talking, without you, I feel so lost. I honestly don’t know what I’d do without you, you’re like, my other half. I know, yesterday, I promised you that I’ll never cut again, I’m so sorry, but if you won’t be back in 2 weeks, I’ll do it. I just can’t wait, it hurts so much. I’m in tears right now, and I really can’t write anything else today. Yeah, I think, that’s it for today.
Bye Awy, I love you and I miss you. 
-Yasemin. 

Dear Aly,
I’m at my cousin’s place at the moment, and I probably won’t be able to write much. Anyways, today was a good day. At school, I’m doing this new project with some girls from my class; Luna, Sabrina& Franziska. Luna& Sabrina act like sluts, but, Franziska is very friendly. I walked home with Franziska today and we kept talking about Justin Bieber, which reminded me of you. Franziska is a Belieber& I’m kind of a fan, and I think that’s why she likes me. She has blonde, curly hair and is very short. I’ve been called beautiful today, and a random girl from our school said that she loves my hair. That was actually pretty nice. And by the way, have I told you that I’m friends with Alyssa again? Well, I did now. I just normally texted her something about Demi Lovato, because she is a Lovatic and yeah, I really do like her. I don’t like her as much as I like you, I would never and I could never. And I know, I can’t project you from everything, but I will try. I love you, and I know that you don’t love me more than you love your other best friends, but that’s my biggest wish. To be your number 1. I wish we could meet, talk, do everything what bestfriends just do. I’d hug you everyday and tell you that I love you, cause I really do, and that’s what best friends do. I have to be honest, you’re my second best friend and I hope that you always will be my best friend, until the world ends. Alyssa was my first and only best friend and then she found another girl and I was alone for 3 years. And then, I found you, and I really am glad that I met you. Cause from the moment I met you, everything changed. I feel so loved, and I hope that I make you feel loved, too. I miss you, and it feels like I’m going crazy, I don’t know what to do without you. I can honestly say, you’ve been on my mind, since I woke up today. Well, actually, you never leave my mind, you’re always on my mind. I hope that you come back soon, and I hope that you won’t forget me.
Bye Awy, I love you and I miss you.
-Yasemin.

Dear Aly,
I have a sciene test tomorrow, and I haven’t studied anything yet. I got home at 12am today, and then I called my cousins, Tatjana and Melissa and we went to the mall together. It was really, really hot and we went home after 1 hour. I wasn’t happy at all, because I missed you. I’m so tired right now, but if I would be talking to you, I wouldn’t mind. You know that I stay up late just to talk to you, I really miss doing this. I miss you. I’m listening to Enchanted by Taylor Swift and hugging my Aly pillow. I do that every night. I hope you’re okay, I hope you didn’t forget me. You know that we stopped talking once, and I don’t want this to happen again. I don’t want to cut again. But, I’d do anything for you. I don’t know anything else to write now, but I don’t want to end the fourth letter now. It’s already Thursday, four days now, which means, that I can stay strong without you. But that will be only for a little while. I am dying inside. I am probably going to cut next Tuesday. You said a few weeks, wich is quite long. I just can’t wait anymore. I just don’t want to wait anymore. I really want to meet you, that’d be so fun! We’d record videos, take pictures and stuff. I’ve never had a friend who wanted to do this with me. Anyways, I’m going to sleep now, even though it’s only 4pm.
Bye Awy, I love you and I miss you.
-Yasemin.